Monday, February 14, 2011
I don't know how many others experience this, but sometimes I will wake in the wee hours of the morning in a strangely horny mood. Not completely awake, but not asleep. I'll find myself curled up with the full body pillow or laying on my stomach pressing my crotch into the mattress. My mind will be a swirl of naughty thoughts. Sometimes it's just general horniness and sometimes I'll wake thinking very specific thoughts. On a recent evening I partly woke and was seized by a feeling that I was so sorry that I never admitted to my Ex some of the things I fantasized about. I remember mumbling, "I'm sorry I never told you that I wanted you to bring home men to fuck. I'm sorry I never told you that I wanted to watch them make you cum over and over. I'm sorry I never told you how much I wanted you to watch them fuck my mouth." It's weird to think back on it and remember myself writhing in bed as I babbled my apologies for not admitting my desire to suck her juices and his cum from her lover's cock. Somehow I managed to keep from cumming and finally slipped back to sleep. It's so strange the way the mind works, isn't it?